im going to die someday

possibly today

and when i die

will these be the thoughts

in my silly little head ??

will they be destructive ??

wasteful ??

snarling around my brain

eating away at me

(as i die)

or will i let my thoughts

develop

grow

thrive

into fruitless plants

wandering my mind

searching for nothing

will they be pleasant thoughts ??

or random ones

but id rather not obsess

or hate

at the end of my life

which might be today

which might be right now !!

and when they operate on my mind

at the beginning of what comes next

i want them to find pale blue

and nothingness

or at least something silly

or pointless

as the final moments in my head